Paramore....

Well, if you all don't know, Paramore is my favorite band. Ever since the day they were created by the Gods or just God. About a year ago er so, two people decided to break up from the band, causing a lot of heart ache for myself and a lot of other fans out there. Today, I finally had the time to comment on a blog, owned by the two guys who left the band. My opinionated post went a little like this:

Josh, and I guess Zach too.

I just want to say that I miss you guys a lot. I know you won't listen to a single word I say after this sentence, but hear me out. Get back together with Paramore.

First I would love to start off by addressing your faith. You talk a lot about God and how it's such a huge part of your life. Bull shit. If you were a true believer in God, you would know what forgiveness is and be able to forgive your former band mates. Forgive Hayley and Jeremy. That is probably the biggest act and form of God. If Taylor was able to do it, why can't you guys? I would also like to state that I'm also a Christian. There's been a lot of shit in my life that I have to live through and forgive. I never run away from my problems, but rather I face them to become stronger. I learn to love and forgive.

Also, being in the band Paramore is a sign from God. It is your purpose in life to be a part of this band. If not, then why are you a guitarist? Why are your musical talents currently being wasted as you wait for another person to show up? Hayley WAS that person. And you shouldn't get caught up in what happened in the past and never should take it seriously. Business is business, and it sucks shit. Your thoughts of Hayley and Jeremy trying to take over the band are false. It's purely marketing, nothing personal. Managers have to find ways to create a marketable band for society to like. Hayley was the key, she was the voice, the one to bring Paramore out of the darkness and into the light. Without her, Paramore wouldn't be what it is today. As sad as reality is, the band is nothing without its lead singer. Why do you think musicians like Journey, Gotye, Bee Gees, Jimmy Eat World, Josh Groban, and so forth are so memorable? Yes because of the musical style, but most importantly their voices. People remember the voices. God meant to have you play guitar in the band Paramore and Hayley be the voice of the band. If not, why did you meet her in the first place? Along with Jeremy, he's a hell of a bassist.

I want to conclude by saying how faithful I am to Paramore.  Just like every other fan, I'm a diehard Paramore fan, collect all of the studio albums, and am upset with this stupid band break up, even today. You and your new band “Novel American” aren't going anywhere, and Paramore is still there for you.  If I were you, I would face my fears and continue my passion for music by rejoining with Paramore. It's never too late to change one's mind. (Sorry, got a little off topic there). Most importantly, the lyrics you and Hayley write are like magic. I can relate to every single word you guys create and perform. I've listened to your songs through the good and the bad times. I'm even pissed off because it's so difficult to download your guys demos such as Hello Hello, Love Sick Melody, everything! Just the things you and Zach create with Paramore brings more meaning to my life. Your guys’ musical talents along with Paramore’s musical talents are…. I don’t even know how to describe it.  It’s that influential.

I know you don't see it, OR IT'S NOT THE "TRUTH", but I feel like God meant to put you, Zach, Taylor, Jeremy, and Hayley together. If not, why would this many people be upset with you and Zach. Why would the lyrics you and Hayley create be meaningful to the whole world? Why do you have the musical talents that you have now? Why aren't you going anywhere in your current music career? I've been waiting to hear from your new band for a while now.

From one Christian to another, you should never use God as a shield, but more of a way to strengthen your life. You guys were all young and were probably going through a lot of stuff, so forgiveness is always key.

Thank goodness I finally posted about my feelings, because it's been eating the hell outta me for a while. Well there ya go Farro brothers. I don't care whether you care to read this or not, just want to let you guys know FINALLY how I feel about you both leaving the band.

Cheers.

So yeah, I just felt like sharing my thoughts on this very old matter, as I said before, it still bothers me today. It's like when Steve Perry is replaced with Arnel freakin Pineda! It's not the same... And now Queen with Adam Lambert. What is the world coming to now.. I guess I'm a little hipster for saying that the good ol' bands can never be replaced. 

Paramore, I still love ya!

Am I Catholic?

Yes. I am Catholic.

I find it interesting when I tell people this fact. Some are say that I can't be Catholic because they are strict and conservative, while others are surprised that I'm not Buddhist. Trust me, I've got experience in this. In a way I can't believe that I'm Catholic too! I've been raised in an open minded family, so I've always wondered by I'm not Buddhist, Atheist, and so forth. My parents say that they are Catholic because of the teachings. Not just because "love" is the key to everything, as well as peace. But as they listen to homilies, they say it relates to their own life as they interpret it and helps give order in life.

So my main point in this post is to see how Catholicism fits in my life. Believe it or not, I used to be a "hardcore" Catholic. In the youth group, I used to sing songs like crazy, "put my hands out" to God, and sometimes even cry. However, at times I always felt like I was just trying to fit in the group. I got tired of it. Every time I went to a retreat, the same person would have the same problem and keep crying. I mean it's okay to be human, but shouldn't we be improving on ourselves?

Also, I would say that my confirmation year was a huge let down. I thought that the sponsor I picked would answer the numerous questions about my faith. WRONG. She had no experience whatsoever and didn't really answer any of my questions. (Maybe it's my fault for picking this person).

Well going into many tangents tonight, I just want to conclude by saying that my next few posts will be about my questions toward my faith. I find that blogging helps me reflect better and come to some kind of conclusion to my unanswerable questions. Some topics will be about "What is sin" or "Who is God", etc.

So look forward to my future posts, and talk to you all later!

Night!

I AM ALISON

This past weekend, I FINALLY got to learn a lot more about myself. I'm not afraid to say that I finally took off some heavy weights that have been on my back for the past two years. Or as my mom says, clearing out the nests that other bird have built in my head.

Lately, I've had a problem with church. I was a hardcore church person before as I used to put my faith into "God" and believe that everything was going to be okay. However, when I read and had open discussions about some novels in A.P. Literature, I was, I guess you can say, tainted. The author's statements of some novels made me think about the world and how much shit there is. In summary of this class, I learned, besides the curriculum of the class, that the world is full of shit, no matter how much everyone tries to change it for the better. If we try to change one thing, another bad thing will come up. Also, there's always people who try to inflict pain on others; rapists, criminals, bullies, etc. I felt insignificant because I was just one person in the world.

This was the first weight to be placed on my back. I didn't know what the point in life was. I know I sound suicidal or whatever, but I'm not willing to kill myself. That's too lowly of an action. I was just confused about everything and wanted some answers.

There were no answers.

Of course, there comes a time in a person's life where we go crazy. Thank god I was finally had my crazy moment this weekend. This was the first time in a long time where I cried and bawled like a baby. I cried so much that my body was shaking and it was getting hard to breathe. Of course, the next morning, my eyes were freakin' puffy and my sinuses were stuffed. Nonetheless, I learned a lot about myself. To keep this simple, I'll put it in a list:

• I'm weak
• I'm soft
• I'm a huge pessimist
• I'm too nice
• I can't form my own opinions
• I go with the flow of people

Some may say that I am being too hard on myself, but it is true. I prefer it if people are straight forward with me rather than hide the truth. The problem is, in this situation, I take everything into heart. I need to take the criticism and improve upon it. It's funny, how one part of me always pushes me to do better and challenge myself, while the other is weak and conforms to what other people think. 

I'm am grateful to have parents. Especially parents who are willing to talk to me about anything. Sure there are those days when I don't want to listen to them at all or think that I'm always right, but in this case, they are a life saver. I asked questions concerning life and how I am as a person. I also talked about my friend and how they were leeching off of my nice manner.  To nicely sum everything that I learned: 

• I need to fight for myself and who I am.
• I must be nice righteously. 
• Don't let other people take advantage of me.
• Be nice in a smart way. 
• I must take care of myself before I take on the problems of the world. 
• In reality, not everyone can take on the problems of the world, so there's no need to get overworked on it. 
• I must learn to maintain the peace between myself and other people and learn how to interact with others. 
• I can't always let myself suffer, it's not keeping the peace. 
• Sometimes the obvious is right. 
• Being semi-hipster, I always thought that I shouldn't judge people or things in general before I got to learn about it.
• But there are times where things are plainly black and white. 
• When people are joking, that's the time to joke. 
• If one person becomes offended, be clear with them. 
• "If you are hurt, we cannot play this game with you."
• Don't make a big deal about losing a friend. 
• It's his/her loss if they aren't willing to change for you. 
• There are always other friends I can hang out with. 
• My parents know a lot. A LOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. 
• They've been through a lot in their lives, why do I have to keep carrying the weights when I can easily learn how to live with out it? Just listen to them. 

I feel a lot better about my actions. Before, I always felt guilty about not pleasing others or offending them, when in reality it's not a big deal at all. It's not as if someone is badly injured or is dying. With all of this in mind, I feel as if I can relive life being more comfortable with myself. I even feel more motivated live life more and to become a better person. 

And yes mommy, (I do call my mom mommy and my dad daddy), I will clean my room. I now know how true your words are. 

I AM ALISON

I'm Baaaaaack!

Yeah, tumblr is a huge liar. They have waaaaaaaaay less stuff than Blogspot. The only good thing about tumblr is that they upload things a lot faster. Besides that, ehhhhhh. I prefer blogspot. You can be a lot more personable in  here.

Tumlbr

I know, I'm evil.

I'm switching to a tumblr account for a while. I hear it has better devices, soooooo yeah. Don't worry, I won't delete this blog, I'll just be gone for a little while.

index poem rough draft

Hmmm I guess to start brainstorming for this index poem, I'm going to start typing down some stuff that pops in my brain when I think of AP Comp.

• Awesome
• Crying
• writing
• hand cramping
• rhetorical analysis
• arguing
• one in the morning
• sarcasm
• funny
• max hanson
• feud
• fun classmates
• power writing
• approval
• improvement
• tears
• of joy
• of anger
• of sadness
• Freak outs
• going with the flow
• reading
• 50 essays book
• bitzer
• orwell
• didion
• voice
• shitty first drafts
• many drafts
• diction
• tone
• audience
• calling friends for help
• a.p. comp facebook
• bla
• vocab
• BANAL
• bombast
• visual essays
• typing on laptop
• blogging
• sleep deprivation
• angry parents :P
• finals
• REJOICE!
• Funny stories

As the last week goes by, I'm sure to think of more things to put into this awesome poem.

Amusing Ourselves to Death... Literally.

Reading this book ENTERTAINED me so much that I almost died....

Well to a more serious note, let's move on to my personal reviews of this book. The author's overall argument in SIMPLIFIED terms is that everything we do needs to be supported with some sort of entertainment. This is caused by the evolution of mediums; ways we communicate. As soon as the television came into existence, people have learned to expect "entertainment" for every single thing they participate in. Whether it may be school, church, and so on. People's attention span is limited only to entertainment. I think the content of the book is important. People today should be aware of television and the effects of it. How addictive it can be, alter people's talking style, etc.

I would recommend to NOT read this book. It was probably one of the hardest books to read. Postman uses a lot of needless vocabulary and references to make his point. It was very hard to read. I've read difficult books before with formal diction and elaborate syntax, but this book was just over redundant with everything.  Each chapter is an example of why people are addicted to entertainment. Within each chapter contains MILLIONS of examples. MILLIONS. Even right now, I can't recall much of what the book was about. There were so many examples that if I were to skip until the end of the chapter, I wouldn't miss a thing. This book could have been condensed to, let's see, about five pages. I would have enjoyed it a lot more if this book was more simplified.

So after reading this review, it is now UP TO YOU to make the decision. Read the book? Not read the book? Read Twilight? Sure. (BWAHAHAHAHA! But a book you all should read is Battle Royal or Pride and Prejudice. Or just read a book, don't watch television.)