Why I Write

Why do I write? Well duh, isn't it obvious! I write because of school and to communicate to others. But that's pretty obvious now isn't it? But to be more thoughtful in this topic, I really don't write a lot. I find it difficult to make "spectacular" pieces of work, and my hand usually just gets tired when I write a lot. 

In the past, I've periodically always tried to maintain a daily journal so that I could possibly in the future look back on what I was thinking about on a particular day. (Sometimes laugh at the stupid stuff that I write about, or relive in the moment that I greatly adore.) For a couple of nights, I would furiously write all of the things that happened in a day and rant about what was bothering me, what was interesting, etc. But after those few days, I just stop. I don't know why I stop writing, but maybe it could be because of a few reasons. First of all, writing a lot makes my arm really tired. Hahaha that was pretty simple, but I usually can overcome that obstacle. Another reason is that it takes forever for me to write! I usually tend to get wordy and describe my experiences for quite a long time. I can't really take the risk to stay up late at night to journal, sleep is just too precious. I would also say the fact that I can't write as fast as I think really bothers me too, because  I would always forget what I wanted to write! But like I said before, I really don't know why I just stop journaling. It could just narrow down to the fact that I'm really lazy. 

I forgot to add that another reason why I always try to journal is that there are some secrets that I can't tell anyone, but I need to put it somewhere so that I can have some peace and quiet in my brain. If I hold it in too long, I tend to think too much and possibly go crazy, hahaha. Okay, well, not really go crazy, but it's better if I just let things out sometimes. 

Besides this little story of me journaling, there are some instances where I really do write. Usually when I write, I need to put down what is in my mind. For me, it can be pretty complex at times. What I mean by this is that I tend to think about a million things at one time; what should I wear tomorrow, college applications, AP Chem homework, AP Micro test, AP Comp readings and essays, ACT score, BPA events, and the list goes on and on and on. (For instance I'm thinking about all of that stuff right now.) When I am in a spiritual state of writing, my mind just starts vomiting random things. Usually when I look back at my pieces of work, none of the stuff that I write about relates, that's how random it can get sometimes. 

One last thing about writing is that sometimes I feel joyful when I do write. It's like talking to a person that's not there. I get to let out all of the random stuff that's in my mind. One thing I really dislike is when I get into writing mode, I don't want to stop! It's like running for a long period of time. I start to feel tired, say that I should probably take some time to rest, but no! I don't want to stop. If I stop, I waste the time that I can use to run (write). If only I could live forever, then I would have more time to enjoy the things that I don't want to stop doing. 

So yeah, this pretty much sums up why I write. I know it sounds kind of disappointing, but I really can't find a time to write. As of right now, I practically could be going to college since i'm taking a lot of A.P. classes anyways! Thank goodness that I'm a senior this year.